So it is 6:25 am and I have still not slept. My insomnia is real.
When my bipolar disorder manifests this way, I deal with the insomnia in weird ways. Sometimes I work out, sometimes I read or write and sometimes I try on every piece of clothing I own and do my hair and makeup and all for what? I just can’t sleep and I am trying to get rid of the energy. There is a lot of ruminating thoughts, and my body is literally buzzing with energy. I would not say I am I’m in an “up” phase though. I still cried considerably throughout the night and couldn’t stop the racing thoughts. Maybe I am having a mixed episode, who knows.
This was a really short post Im sorry, I just needed something else to do lol. I also needed to vent a bit because believe me it is so frustrating wanting to goto sleep but your body just won’t turn off. I am hoping around lunch I will pass out, if not, I will find some other ways to occupy myself. Okay goodnight .. Wait Good morning, enjoy the day!